During the prelude music and start of Sacrament Meeting, I'm contemplating on how good I feel for going through my fifth regimen of chemo. And I realize that my rather foreign pessimistic outlook of late is gone. I no longer feel so dark inside, like I'm fighting a losing battle. Sure, the next instance might kill me, but I might have a long time before the lymphoma is back. I have hope again. These are truly amazing discoveries!
And, as usual, I start scanning the congregation and reflecting on how many individuals in our ward that I feel truly supported by. I love these people and there's way too many to list.
A few things definitely stand out though: purple flowers planted in our flower beds by the Mia Maids, a large container filled with purple flowers from Jana, purple flowers and a cuddly blanket from Sandy, a very touching note from John and an equally touching post/email from Jennifer, and a beautiful chest of notes from lots of people and delivered by Maddie on a night when everything seemed really black and hopeless.
Suddenly, I'm overwhelmed by all of the love and support that I feel. All of those prayers are why this regimen is treating me so well so far. I know it. It's a great tender and miraculous mercy from our ward members who are definitely acting as the Savior's hands here on the earth.
Thank you all. I'm truly touched and grateful!
I'm not usually one to ask for help, prayers, & kindness but I've recently found that when you do ask (and sometimes even when you don't) there are SO MANY more people wanting to serve you than you can imagine. I am SO incredibly grateful to be a member of the church if for no other reason than simply for the network of loving hands, help & support. It's hard sometimes to be the receiver of kindness, but rest assured, being the giver is such a blessing when the service is well received. Love you, Trish! I'm glad things are moving along and you've found a splice of sunshine through the clouds.
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